The meaning of siblings this week also includes the tail end of my trip to New York as a Top Latina Blogger with LATISM. Truly, this summer was unlike anything I expected it to be… I traveled more than I had in a long time. I loved connecting with my blogging friends and growing De Su Mama. But I missed my kids.
This experience has really helped me temper my professional ambitions with my realities as a mother to two small kids. I want to be here with them, to savor every moment of their growth, and I want to do that as a happy mom – which means I won’t stop writing. Some people run, some people cook, I do a lot of things, but mostly I write. My goal is to grow, ever so slowly, so that when my babies are in school, I can hit the ground running with my personal and professional goals. In the meantime, I’m happy being the best mom I can be.
This project has kind of fallen by the wayside, in terms of the quality of imagery. BUT, I’m not giving up because I will treasure it once it’s all done. Day 117 speaks to me because, as parents, D and I struggle with the balance of giving everything to our babies – but not the attitude. I let Alina struggle a lot (especially when it comes to developing her small motor skills), even to the point where she freaks out. I hope I’m doing the right thing.
Day 118 makes me think of a post I wrote a long time ago, as I watched my only child swing alone… my my, have our lives changed since then.
You two are my everything. I’ve gotten a bit distracted, being consumed with what makes me feel fulfilled, but mama’s back now… ready to be the mom I used to be…. just in time for the holiday season! I start to deal with mommy guilt, but then I see you with your amazing dad and know that you’re just fine. You love me like crazy, are happy, and building a great relationship with your father – AND I get to pursue my ambitions. Not sure what I have to complain about. Right?
Te quiero tanto,