Dearest Son,
You are so stinking cute! Forgive me for ever doubting your insane cuteness; I’m ashamed to admit that I once did. Officially though, and for the record, you are tied with Alina as my cutest baby ever 
At 5 months of precious life, you have accomplished so much. You are such a strong boy! You are able to raise your chest off the floor, when laying on your belly, supported by those strong arms. You can roll over, from both sides! You wiggle, inch by inch, all over this place. You will be crawling in no time! You are surpassing my expectations by sitting up at 5 months – quite the developmental milestone. You are an expert with your hands, mastering using those tiny fingers even. I have to be very careful to not leave objects near you because you grab ev.er.y.thing and immediately put it in your mouth. Just this week, you spent a few minutes looking over the rim of your exercauser, aching for a toy that you had dropped. You sleep well at night, waking once in the early morning for a quick snack before drifting back off to sleep. You take one great nap a day, with sprinkles of 20 minuters after that. Not my favorite, but at least you are get a few minutes in. You just need to stay awake and take in your world, including the crazy antics called Alina. I love getting to know you, Sebastian. I simply cannot believe how much you have grown in what feels like a blink of an eye.
You are a chunky boy, to be sure. Weighing in at a whopping 19 pounds {90th%} and 26.25 inches long {80th}. I estimate another month or so before we have to switch your car seat. You wear 6-9 month clothing, mostly because I refuse to go any higher. You can certainly pull off 9 or 12 month sizes. You are wearing a size three diapers, we finally worked through all those 2′s! I have no idea what your shoe size is, since they are massive and I’m not ready to accept the fact that you don’t fit in any of the ones we currently own.
My sweet Sebastian, I left you for the first time this month. I’m so sorry if you think that makes me a bad mom. Your Daddy took very good care of you. You truly love him so. But when I came home and we suffered losing breast milk production, I pretty much lost it. The amount of guilt I felt in jeopardizing our relationship was unimaginable. But, we got through and, with two weeks of super mom insanity, we’ve managed to establish a new normal for us. You are still a breastfeeding baby, but those chunky thighs need supplementing, and I’m okay with that. You are healthy. You still love to breastfeed. And your Momma has regained the presence of mind to know: if baby is happy and healthy, nothing else matters. I am blessed by you, my Son. Thank you for loving me, always.
This month we will venture into the world of solids, starting with the ceremonious rice cereal. I had planned to wait until closer to 6 months because of the issues we dealt with Alina, but after our breastfeeding drama, I figure now was as good a time as any. We can hardly eat a meal without your gawking eyes pleading for a bite! Not to forget how we have to dodge your wild arms, desperately reaching for our utensils and the mysterious eats we keep stuffing in our mouths. Is not uncommon for me to lend you a sip of my water; you are always so thoughtful to leave me a bit of drool, too. Between you and your ever consuming sister, its a miracle I ever get to eat!
My big eyed beauty, I love forever and a day. There is not a place in this world that I would rather be than with you, and our family. I am struggling with the knowledge that my babies won’t be so forever. And knowing that you have completed our family, each and every milestone that you reach is treasured as sacred. I look forward to all that you will teach me about love. I feel so unworthy, sometimes. Yet, I know I am not alone in raising you to become a stellar man. I am so grateful to have your Dad around, to love and nurture you into the gentle human being I pray for you to become. So much awaits you in the months before your first birthday, and I am SO excited for them. Cheers to 5 months, my love.
Te quiero por siempre, mi hijo. Y despues de siempre.
Su Mama
He is too handsome!